‘Mummy I don’t want to bath’
‘I don’t want to sleep, I am not tired’
‘I don’t want to go school’
‘I don’t want to brush teeth’
‘Even if you tell me to do it, I still will not do it’
My boy has reached the stage where he will challenge my decision and talk back at me. I believe this is his way of testing his boundary and my limit. I am feeling so exhausted and stressed out trying to convince him to do the things that need to be done everyday without losing my patience and temper. Most of the time, I will end up raising my voice at him, threatening him and he will end up getting his time out, facing one corner of the room, pulling ears.
The day before, he refused to brush his teeth in the morning and I had to threaten to leave the house without him to finally make him succumbed, with a lot of tears.
For the last 2 days, Mal refused to go to school. I am not sure whether he is doing this to challenge my decision or there really are students in his class whom he dislikes playing with. Maybe it is a mixture of both.
I was so tempted to say ‘ok’ when he told me that he didn’t want to go school, as I miss bringing him out to play and I miss his company but I am afraid that my leniency will be taken advantage of and he will end up not taking school seriously.
I am feeling the brunt of parenthood. I am uncertain, I am lost and I don’t know what to think. Nobody is born perfect but as parent, I felt that I am suddenly expected to be perfect. I have to say the right things, do the right things and I have to constantly be self aware and conscious about the things I do and say as my child is there to watch me and to pick up the good and bad things from me.
And if children are really reflections of their parents, then any bad behaviour display by them is a time for us to reflect on ourselves. It is this knowledge that makes parenthood both scary and exciting. Scary because of the responsibility and influence we have over our children, exciting because we have all the power to mold them into someone, hopefully someone better than ourselves.0