And I Will Love You More

He hasn’t been behaving very well lately
In fact, he has been driving me up the wall
He tests his boundary, he talks back and he does the things that he knows he isn’t supposed to do
He has been nothing but impossible

I had tipped the balance
My constant care for the baby is to him, favoritism
It doesn’t matter that he is 5 years older and can do most of the daily tasks himself
He still wants me to fuss over him
He still wants my undivided attention

And his words cut me like the sharpest edge
when he said ‘I don’t think that you love me’

And I realized that it must have been very hard on him since the baby was born
As not too long ago, he was my one and only ….

I realized that I miss my sweet little boy just as much as he misses having Mummy all to himself

And I promise that I will love him more


These pictures of Malcolm playing with the balloon were taken one month before baby Marcus was born

I realized how much he has grown

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4 Responses to And I Will Love You More

  1. Hugz, I think it is tough to be a mother of 2 or many children.

    Striking a balance is tough here!

    After all, they are still a child!

    Rachel : being independent kind of take away the privilege of being a child…haiz…I m guilty

  2. Awwwww…tat must hv hurt…but fang, i ever read a book abt getting the older child ready for a sibling…it says,don say u will love him more..cos they are all your precious precious..instead tell him…”i love you both the same, but remember, I’ll always LOVE YOU LONGER…because I’ve loved you FIRST” and i thought..that is sooo true isn’t it :)

    Rachel : hey thanks dawn for sharing…loving him more translate to action will be like talking and listening more attentively to him. It is amazing how his behaviour will change when we give them just a bit more attention

  3. Oh! Rachel! You are not alone, my boy asks me quite often when he sees me fussing over the baby, he asks me if I still love him! I really need to balance the time in spending with them! I feel guilty!

    Rachel : hi leeyen, being parent is like the toughest job. But I m glad that we are reflecting and learning along the way. And I m sure that will lead us to becoming better person and parent. Jiayou!

  4. Balance up is really a big task for mum..

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