New Year Resolution

Every year I get nervous during this time of the year thinking about what my new year resolution should be
Yes, seeing comprehensive to-do-list and goals makes me nervous

I have to admit, I am a typical Singaporean
Peer pressure has its way on me and resisting them takes practice

I realised that it is not through sheer willl power, perseverence or determination but something deeper
An unwavering belief or faith, or some sort

I spent the night before new year’s eve at a 24 hour clinic
Went home with a heavy heart and fell asleep with teary eyes
It could be the pain or just the time of the month when my raging hormones always get the better of me

It was a long night

I realised how tough it is when the body is weary but the mind refuses to rest
All I wanted was to hug my boys and tell them I love them

I finally drifted off to sleep close to dawn

A few hours later, I was woken up by my little fellow’s kick
Miraculously, I felt much better than when I went to sleep
the doctor’s medication had worked
I felt like being given a new lease of life

New Year’s eve was quiet, calm and unhurried
It was a rainy and gloomy day
making 2013 bleak and unhopeful

We stayed home
The kids played, ran, screamed, laughed and fought
I let them
I was just happy to be there, watching them, hugging them, kissing them

Bedtime for them was before the countdown
Just when my husband and I were about to turn in for the night
We heard some loud noise from outside the window

There were brightly lit rockets shooting into the sky
They were flares from nearby ships

It was 12 midnight, a new day, a new year, a new start or just continuation
There was no extravagant hotel stay, loud party or fanciful fireworks

Just us, laying in bed, looking out the window
recounting those days when we would travel all the way to the beach to catch this display during New Year’s Eve
Those were the days when we were young and carefree
How we almost forgotten about them and that we live so close  to these ships now

And I finally drifted off to sleep in his arms, peacefully
Knowing that I want nothing more than having great health for my family, myself and everyone dear
and my new year resolution was made simple




Caine’s Arcade And The Cardboard Dreams

Have you heard of the Cardboard Dreams in Singapore ?
Bunch of mums, dozens of kids, and mountains of cardboards
Congregating under the morning sun
on Children’s Day 5 Oct at the Singapore Botanic Garden
building something out of cardboards and imagination
to celebrate creativity
in the name of play

All inspired by this little kid who goes by Caine
who lives in a little suburb town
near the big city of Los Angeles in the US of A

A boy who built himself an arcade centre during last summer vacation
with used cardboard lying around his dad’s used auto parts store
inspired by a basketball hoop on a pizza box

He had it all thought out
from ticketing, cashier, pricing to prizes and fun passes
but he didn’t know marketing
So, people walked past him and his arcade
oblivious to the greatness behind

No matter that people thought how silly he was to be making games out of used cardboards
He continued to work on his arcade, adding new machines by the day, making it bigger and better
No matter that people said no and walked away from his request to play
He continued to wait patiently in his little chair
For he believed that it was not a matter of if
but a matter of when he will get his first customer

And finally one day, his wish came true
His first customer, a down and out film maker
who came by the store in search of a door handle for his 1996 corolla
who saw extraordinary out of this ordinary boy’s arcade
and decided to make a Youtube video to tell and share the story
The video went viral

Some Harvard professor called him a genius
Some say that Caine will have a bright future as an engineer in MIT
Some say we should all learn creativity from him
Some tout him as the future of entrepreneurship

His name became synonomous with the often discussed
but even more often misunderstood concept of creativity

And in his name, they started Global Cardboard Challenge
and launched the Imagination Foundation

You don’t get a Youtube video that goes viral everyday, do you ?
and so, this sets me thinking

I saw not a genius, but a silly little boy
like so many silly little boys out there
With big dreams, big hearts but small hands
who yawned in boredom when interviewed by some intellectual academic

Was it about creativity?
Was it about having dreams?
Or was it about being able to turn dreams into reality?

About perseverance and staying the course even when the going gets tough
About mental discipline and the ability to grit your teeth and get it done
About doing what you believe and believing in what you do

So, my 8 year old has finally managed to pen down his design for the cardboard challenge
complete with comets, asteroids, the oort cloud and the kuiper belt
But like so many great ideas out there
they will probably remain just ideas…on paper

Because till now, I am still trying to teach
that extraordinary quality of Caine
of turning dreams into reality


Note : Hop over to Sarah’s site to read more about the Cardboard Dreams or RSVP here to join in the fun on 5 Oct at the Singapore Botanic Garden


Lunch On Instagram

I watched on as each of them was hauled from a wooden barrel
Carefully and neatly tucked into a little basket of a run down bike

It took a while and plenty of skill
So that all 4 of them would fit nicely inside

For a while, I thought this was some kind of primitive way of killing them

Choking them with the exhaust ?!
I dare not ask

But cringed at the thought and hesitated whether to ask my boys to witness this moment
I doubt I should
It would probably be too traumatizing for them

As I positioned myself with my iphone
I could sense an urgency

Perhaps I was in the way
Maybe my presence made them nervous

I haphazardly snapped a few shots before the bike scootered off

I found out later
These domesticated fowl were on their way to slaughter house

8 months of living for this day

To be served
For lunch